Rock Bottom

Dear Dad,

Today I had a breakdown.

The baby wouldn't stop crying. Harper hasn't been herself since you've been gone. She misses you so much. She has been acting out, super naughty, just a ball of emotions (anger, sadness) that she can't control.
I sat in the baby's room for a while today sobbing hysterically while rocking the baby as she cried. As Harper cried downstairs.

Today was my breaking point.

I called a therapist for Harper, we start on Sunday. I called my doctor and have an appointment on Friday. I have been struggling with postpartum anxiety since Hannah was born, just like I did after Harper. But I worry now that I am becoming depressed. I need to get better for my girls. They deserve so much more. I'm worried about going on meds, but after today, I need to seek professional help and if she says medicine will help, then I'm all for it.

I miss you,
Luen